Hello friends, I’m
finally back from a long hiatus. I’m actually really thrilled in writing again;
although this post may not be about fashion but things like this are very close
to my heart. I am the kind of person who values the moment to reflect and talk
about life in general. And this post is actually one of them- my reflection for
the year 2017.
Growth is
probably what describes my 2017 the best. As individuals, we’re constantly changing. We observe, experience, feel – we grow. Growth is inevitable, but
it is also difficult. You find yourself in these messy situations, not knowing
whether you’re making the right decision or not. Growth is full of self-doubt,
confusion, pain even tears. Loads of them, actually.
This year is full of realizations,
adjustments, focusing and refocusing, learning and living all at once. This
year, I’ve taken a step closer to figuring out what life really means to me. I
adjusted my focus, cleared and redefined my path. This year I took the power
over my own life. I made my own decisions and started believing in myself.
In the beginning
of the year I was insecure about myself and felt the need of other people
liking me. I gave up my individuality and become whatever other people desire
me to be. Conformity in its finest, I think it was my form of mechanism to escape
from the sense of isolation. When I didn’t go out on the weekends, I constantly
felt that I was missing something. When I walked past someone and they stared
at me it made me feel uncomfortable and made me asked myself if something was
wrong with my outfit, or my face perhaps? Since I was having a severe acne
attack on my face that time. I wasn’t confident at all. Year 2017 with all it’s
ups and downs showed me that I have to stop living up to the expectations of
others and start to live for myself. I don’t exactly know when it happened but
at some point this year I stopped caring about what others think and minded my
own business. I started doing, saying, wearing whatever I wanted and from that
point on I was free. I’ve learned that it’s way more important what I think of
myself than what others think of me. So I focused on what’s good for me and
what is not. I’ve learned that when I start looking on the positive things in
life, there’s no room for the negative. And I realized how lucky I am to be given
this beautiful life, family and friends. I also learned the power to say no, it
is never (NEVER) easy, it may hurt some feelings and it takes a lot of self-control
but the more I say no to things that don't matter, the more I was able to say
yes to the things that do.
This year showed
me it’s okay to let things flow and I’ve accepted that the world is both
beautiful and ugly. Occasionally, someone will be so adamant and so offensive
that you’re never going to be able to engage in a civil conversation with them.
There are those people who keeps on spreading negativity because they are unhappy
and unsatisfied in life. Those close-minded people who never accepts opinions
because they kept their egos untouched and those who really love to run their
mouths about others according to what they’ve heard. Any ways, gossip dies when
it hits a wise person’s ears. Let’s just hope more people are wise enough
*winks (are u wise sizt?). But it is really our choice if we want to stay
bitter or get better. And of course, let us chose positivity. I am still in the
progress on being kind even to those who seem like they don't deserve it, for they
deserve it the most. In a society like ours where outer beauty is more
important than inner beauty, we need to remember to remain kind even in cruel
situations.
In year 2017, I
learned to love and know myself. I dug deep down to the deepest corner of my
heart for the things that could bring me joy and purpose. I learned to
understand myself even more and accept its every flaw and imperfection. I learned
how to find peace within myself and enjoyed the comforts of being alone. It’s important to take a break once in a while
and give yourself some credit for how far you’ve come. I’m on this life long
journey, practicing self-love, acceptance, forgiveness and kindness. This year I
failed quite a lot, been hurt and lost myself but this year, I also realized
that all those things that happened was because I took risks, had taken enough
chances, had fought with the greatest battles and it made me stronger. They say
its okay to fall down and lose your spark. Just make sure that when you get
back up, you rise as the whole damn fire. We all have setbacks in our
yesterdays but our past doesn’t define our future. I can’t say this is the best
year for me, but it is surely a year to be remembered. With a happy heart, I’m
leaving this year behind. Here’s to 2018
. Hoping for a
great year ahead J
Happy New Year guys!
. Hoping for a
great year ahead J
Happy New Year guys! 
Walang komento:
Mag-post ng isang Komento