Year 2017 Reflection

Hello friends, I’m finally back from a long hiatus. I’m actually really thrilled in writing again; although this post may not be about fashion but things like this are very close to my heart. I am the kind of person who values the moment to reflect and talk about life in general. And this post is actually one of them- my reflection for the year 2017.

Growth is probably what describes my 2017 the best. As individuals, we’re constantly changing. We observe, experience, feel – we grow. Growth is inevitable, but it is also difficult. You find yourself in these messy situations, not knowing whether you’re making the right decision or not. Growth is full of self-doubt, confusion, pain even tears. Loads of them, actually.

        This year is full of realizations, adjustments, focusing and refocusing, learning and living all at once. This year, I’ve taken a step closer to figuring out what life really means to me. I adjusted my focus, cleared and redefined my path. This year I took the power over my own life. I made my own decisions and started believing in myself.

In the beginning of the year I was insecure about myself and felt the need of other people liking me. I gave up my individuality and become whatever other people desire me to be. Conformity in its finest, I think it was my form of mechanism to escape from the sense of isolation. When I didn’t go out on the weekends, I constantly felt that I was missing something. When I walked past someone and they stared at me it made me feel uncomfortable and made me asked myself if something was wrong with my outfit, or my face perhaps? Since I was having a severe acne attack on my face that time. I wasn’t confident at all. Year 2017 with all it’s ups and downs showed me that I have to stop living up to the expectations of others and start to live for myself. I don’t exactly know when it happened but at some point this year I stopped caring about what others think and minded my own business. I started doing, saying, wearing whatever I wanted and from that point on I was free. I’ve learned that it’s way more important what I think of myself than what others think of me. So I focused on what’s good for me and what is not. I’ve learned that when I start looking on the positive things in life, there’s no room for the negative. And I realized how lucky I am to be given this beautiful life, family and friends. I also learned the power to say no, it is never (NEVER) easy, it may hurt some feelings and it takes a lot of self-control but the more I say no to things that don't matter, the more I was able to say yes to the things that do.

This year showed me it’s okay to let things flow and I’ve accepted that the world is both beautiful and ugly. Occasionally, someone will be so adamant and so offensive that you’re never going to be able to engage in a civil conversation with them. There are those people who keeps on spreading negativity because they are unhappy and unsatisfied in life. Those close-minded people who never accepts opinions because they kept their egos untouched and those who really love to run their mouths about others according to what they’ve heard. Any ways, gossip dies when it hits a wise person’s ears. Let’s just hope more people are wise enough *winks (are u wise sizt?). But it is really our choice if we want to stay bitter or get better. And of course, let us chose positivity. I am still in the progress on being kind even to those who seem like they don't deserve it, for they deserve it the most. In a society like ours where outer beauty is more important than inner beauty, we need to remember to remain kind even in cruel situations.

In year 2017, I learned to love and know myself. I dug deep down to the deepest corner of my heart for the things that could bring me joy and purpose. I learned to understand myself even more and accept its every flaw and imperfection. I learned how to find peace within myself and enjoyed the comforts of being alone.  It’s important to take a break once in a while and give yourself some credit for how far you’ve come. I’m on this life long journey, practicing self-love, acceptance, forgiveness and kindness. This year I failed quite a lot, been hurt and lost myself but this year, I also realized that all those things that happened was because I took risks, had taken enough chances, had fought with the greatest battles and it made me stronger. They say its okay to fall down and lose your spark. Just make sure that when you get back up, you rise as the whole damn fire. We all have setbacks in our yesterdays but our past doesn’t define our future. I can’t say this is the best year for me, but it is surely a year to be remembered. With a happy heart, I’m leaving this year behind. Here’s to  2018 . Hoping for a great year ahead J Happy New Year guys!

                                                                                                                  Lots of love,Simply Gilian ♥